If only ..

If only you could help the way you feel .. even so, I’m not sure if I’d want to stop something this real .

Love the fact that I made you smile, love the way that I made you smile, love the fact that you loved it ..

All I know ..

All I know is that everything seems so much better when I’m talking to you .. my day seems to have so much more life added to it, just a simple “Hey :)” could probably carry my spirits for a day alone .. and I hate myself for it .. I can’t handle the fact that you have that much power over me, that you control my very being, attitude .. just by what you can say to me, the fact that I know you can’t see me as more than a friend is crammed to the back of my mind and smothered by the thought of hope .. hope .. the thing about mixing me and hope, I already know the outcome .. but my mind is clouded, infatuated with the thought, the emotional challenge of winning you over .. It’s just classic me, I’ll go out of my way to do anything that’ll bring a smile to your face in the hopes that something in your heart will change .. and I just wish that I knew how you see me .. might give my hope a little something to hang onto .. I’ve been here before and haven’t learned my lesson .

In Too Deep .

I’m in too deep with this shit, I get way too attached, way too soon, I’m in way over my head .. I’m just drowning is this .. emotional pool .

The One .

Growing up I always felt like .. there was just that one person you were destined to love .. Someone that is just meant for you, that somehow I would find them out there in a world they claim to be “so small” . I swear it seems a little bigger every time I think about “the one” .. and I think growing up really changed my whole perspective on what I thought Love was, I learned through the heartbreaks that liking or loving someone is just a matter of where you are and who you’re around, it’s more human nature than some magical predestined fate .. Sure we may think somebody might be perfect, but that’s only because we except their flaws, and what we love about them overshadows anything else, and that’s really a good thing .. but it kind of takes the magic out of it for me . Nothing more in my life do I want than to find my other half, I think that’s what makes life worth it .. Through everything you endure, everything you have ahead of you, to have that special .. perfect somebody right beside you .

Maybe one day ..

Heartbreak .. This feeling is all too familiar, got me thinking in comparison is this one any realer ? Cause I fell once .. damn I fell twice, you would think I would learn my lesson or just lose my mind .. Imagine if I had the perfect girl, with the perfect personality, in a perfect world .. Is Love an obsession ? or is it simply an innate definition .. Truth is I have loved, deeper than I could’ve thought .. Love like, the kind in the movies, so cliche but .. the kind you want .. Is it too much to ask that I find what I’m looking for, I suppose it is, destiny is what I seek .. to stumble onto . To fall into the fate of my circumstances where things turn out the way I’d always imagined, a fairy-tale ending .. Why is it we think a story with such an ending can no more be brought to life than it has with words ? My only hope that the actions I perform topple the dominoes of my fate .. and intertwine with the course of yours .